So - we're into February, which means it's time for an update. I had such a great response to my initial post (here) - so how did January go?
There is a reason I haven't cracked this weight thing yet - I am completely addicted to food. I have the kind of personality that gets hooked on things for very short periods of time, then my interest wanes and I drop it like a hot potato (mmm......hot potatoes........). It's a blessing I never started gambling.
Take January, for example. I went into January all guns blazing, convinced that clean eating was the way to go - and promptly began gorging on peanut butter, oatcakes and nuts. My husband discovered that the local chinese takeaway do these little snack box type things full of smoked chicken, chilli wings and hot chips for a fiver - so we were having one of those between us every week too. Or sometimes twice a week. I convinced myself that because I was eating "good" stuff, the occasional treat was okay - I bought a bar of 75% dark chocolate, broke off a square, and had that one day. Then I had the rest of it about two hours later. That "occasional" treat became a regular thing. Then I decided that food wasn't a treat, so I went mad buying makeup. I'd spend an hour looking at lipstick swatches while shovelling handfuls of popcorn and pumpkin seeds into my gob - mindless eating. I tried smoothies and soups and became obsessed - I assume it's not a great sign to be thinking of a Nutribullet during sex!
At the end of January, I had to buy clothes - there was no way around it, I was down to one pair of trousers. After making a New Look order full of size 18 clothes yet again, I felt like shit. This time three years ago I filled a bag with size 18 clothes and happily donated them to clearout, swearing I'd never buy that size again. I felt so, so angry at myself, and really frustrated. WHY can't I crack this?! It's just food! Why can't I get a handle on it?!
Back to Slimming World I went - I bought a new notebook (none of the current 17 ones I have were suitable), I bought new gel pens (because the notebook needed pretty pens) and I started a food diary again. I bought snacks that I could have in the evening, guilt-free.
My total weight loss for January was....................
I was going to lie and say I was down 7 or 8, but lying to myself is what got me to this point initially, so honesty it is.
February has been good, so far. I've been writing out food plans, I've been cooking meals from scratch, and I've been incorporating snacks into my day and using around 10-13 Syns a day. I've been making good use of my slow cooker, and I have a list of things to cook at the weekend so that I will have lunches all next week. That's another huge mistake I was making - because I'm at home all day, I wasn't having lunch. Now I'm having a proper lunch at 1pm every day, and it's making a difference to how I feel in the evenings. I've also cut down a bit on bread, but I'm going to make some small wholemeal scones this weekend to have with veggie soup instead of green leaves - if I eat any more rocket I will launch.
I've found that the days I photographed my meals were some of the better ones, so here are a few of the meals I've had lately. I also joined instagram with a view to uploading some meal pictures, but I keep forgetting I have it. I'm here if you want to follow and see photos of double chins and mugs of tea.
|Half an Avocado mashed on two slices of wholemeal bread, with microwave eggs (2 eggs, dash of skim milk, stir, microwave for 90sec) with spring onion and pepper.|
|Wholegrain rice with Chicken marinated in Nando's sauce, with mushroom and onion.|
|Slimming World cottage pie with 45g ready-to-use puff pastry (8 syns) and brussels sprouts, peas and sweetcorn.|
|4 wholegrain ryvita crispbread (4 Syns) with extra light philadelphia, smoked salmon, tomatoes, 2 clementines and a mugshot.|
|Rocket, spinach and watercress with jacket potato & tuna/onion/extra light mayo, slice of ham, tomatoes and cocktail gherkins. Mugshot.|
|Wholegrain rice with prawns, grated carrot, mushroom, onion, sprig onion, yellow peppers.|
|Spinach, Watercress & Rocket with leftover pulled pork and tomatoes, spring onions, balsamic vinegar. Mugshot.|
|Spinach, watercress, rocket, tomato, beetroot, hard boiled egg, spring onion, gherkins, hot smoked salmon. Mugshot.|
|Egg muffins (egg/skim milk/ham/spring onion done in muffin cases in Airfryer), mushrooms, Wholemeal slimbo with cherry tomatoes, peppermint tea.|
With regard to snacks, here are the ones I go back to most often:
* 25g pumpkin seeds tossed in frylight and put in the airfryer until brown - 7.5 Syns.
* Cadbury Freddo Bar - 5 Syns.
* Propercorn Sweet & Salty, 23g bag - 6.5 Syns.
* Popchips, Sour Cream & Onion, 23g bag (I think) - 5 Syns.
* Tesco Light Choices Chocolate Mousse (comes in a 6 pack of little pots) - 4 Syns.
I am sick of Curly Wurlys and never want to see another one. Ever.
The first real test so far since I gave myself a(nother) kick up the arse was last week, when we had gone to town early in the evening. My husband had to go somewhere at 6pm, and we were heading home around 4:45pm - he wanted to stop for a burger so I told him I had eaten. In truth I was ravenous, I could have eaten him - but I waited until we got home, threw on a boil-in-the-bag wholegrain rice and grilled some mini chicken fillets. By the time he had eaten his big dirty chicken burger and chips that smelled delicious, my food was ready. Is there a halo for me? For being sensible? I hate that this was a big thing. This is a normal thing to do, yet for me it was something that warranted praise like a child.
I don't have this worked out yet - but I'm taking it one day at a time, and hopefully the March update will be a little more impressive.
Goals for March:
* Stick to 3 meals, 2 snacks every day.
* Get over the obsession with instant gratification. One bowl of salad will not result in a half a stone loss.
* Get off my arse and start moving.